Iddy Iddy Bang Bang!

My nerves are shottttttttttt, ha. Last night I noticed a drip from my freezer, but it seemed fine. A few hours later I went to grab an ice cream sandwich, and it was MUSH. And so was everything else in my freezer. I tested a cup of water from my pitcher in the fridge, which seemed cool enough, but that was not the case this morning. So I had to take the afternoon off, throw out three bags of food, including yesterday's delivery, and put in an ASAP ticket for a new fridge. It is possible that it's something fixable, but honestly--it's from February 1986. It's older than my brother. It has celebrated its 40th birthday. It's time.

But the stress means I haven't eaten a lot today, plus the fact that the food I wanted to eat has been thrown out, and my desk partner called out sick again. So I am solo on desk until 9 and I am super overstimulated and half a beat from bursting into tears. yay.

I had already hit a wall Tuesday afternoon after surprise being on the desk solo for 3 hours during a rainy spring break morning, and would have taken yesterday off if I hadn't had a program. So I was already on edge. I stopped at Walgreens before work to get birthday cards for my dad, coffee to drink at work in the morning, and a frozen dinner, but because I am solo, I don't have a break, so I keep having to sneak back there--to heat it up, now it's cooling down, and then eventually I'll sneak back to eat it.

Last weekend was c2e2, which was fun but a lot. I haven't had the energy or motivation to put together a cosplay for the first time in ten years, but I got great comments on the Rozanov jersey and Read Romance Fight Patriarchy shirts I wore, so that was nice. I also knew walking was going to be a challenge--I've still only walked to work maybe five times in the last 14 months, and the last time I walked at lunch, I went less than a mile and still came back fatigued and sore. But I think I did well--I took Tylenol before going both days, and after we got back on day 2. Instead of walking each aisle and crisscrossing back and forth several times, usually around 6 miles, I only did the aisles once on Friday, 3 miles, and only hit a few specific booths on Saturday. So while I was tired on Sunday, it wasn't egregious.

Not as much cosplay or cosplay that I recognized this year, but I did enjoy seeing a resurgence of Squirrel Girls, and several varieties of Peggy/Captain Carter. I was really surprised to only see a handful of K-Pop Demon Hunters, and there wasn't really a standout fandom of the year. There were several of us in Heated Rivalry related shirts, but no one tried a cosplay. I think Ilya's red flowered shirt would be a fun one, ha.

I did stress buy a fair amount of HR merch, but half of what was there was very anime style. I like my big, hot, muscular hockey players, and don't really want them looking like tiny twinks, so that limited things. But I got some art, a shirt and sweatshirt, some charms to hang on my fandom tree, a coaster, and stickers, plus some non-fandom tea, Robin Buckley perfume, and a Sexy Girls Read notebook, so a pretty great haul overall.

Last week I had a check in with my doctor, where I was going to talk to her about how my meds feel off and my Vyvanse isn't helping like it used to (I think the dose is too high, actually), and we had to reschedule because she was sick. Sad frowny faces. My mood has been low, my energy lower, and it's been a rough few months. The time change did help, at least.

So does DnD! Last week was absolutely AMAZING. We learned a ton of lore about the world and my character--like her mom is at least 2000 years old and her brother was the knight of the main angel in the creation story of our world. And we rescued my best friend!! Which was the mission, but there's still a few days left until the adventure is over. Which could be a few months of playing, ha. I think I will be continuing on after my arc is done--the GM really likes having a character who dives into things and asks blunt questions and doesn't overthink everything, and likes BE specifically. But we also have 9 players now, so I know that that's a lot for them to handle! But it's still so much fun for me, and if it's fun for them then why not, I think.

I'm glad it's been going so well and is so much fun, because it's also the only creativity I currently seem capable of, ha. I really want to write, but the rare times I have the energy/motivation/dopamine to sit at the computer, my mind goes blank. I think I really need a full mental and physical reset, and I'm not sure how or when that will be possible. I hope I can figure it out soon.

And that I have a working fridge sooner rather than later.